Ahhhh.... to begin a new year...again. I have such a love hate, sort of bittersweet relationship with this celebrated landmark in time. Reflecting on the progress and/or recession of 2010 (or any previous year) in the life of Danielle, can stir up a range of emotions... What have I done with all of those minutes, hours, days, and months? Is there any accurate way to measure? Do I look at my bank account or relationship status? How about my chosen career... or lack thereof? Sheesh, I hope none of those factors are included this round.... It seems the older I get, the faster the years fly by and create a keen awareness of my adding age number. Along with that age and time lived, I am so much more able to appreciate and understand the changes that years of life bring. The maturity that time brings can be calming or confusing depending on how I choose to move forward and learn. 2010 has taught or reiterated a few, or maybe just one major thing for me:
1. Loving God is really hard, and does not seem to be getting any easier with time. I met my incredible Savior 5 years ago, yet I am still learning to trust this wonderful being that I can't look into the eyes, or even hug after a rough day. Loving Him in the ways that I'd prefer to show love and also receive it, has become a true struggle this year.
2. Loving people is really hard... I have realized so much about myself this year when it comes to loving or not loving the people around me. I have come upon some really hard truths about my character and sinful nature through my relationships with others. I am so very thankful for grace, and some wonderful blessings of friends.
3. Love stinks... yeah yeaaaahhhh. Just kidding... but seriously! Aside from the previous two love dilemmas in 2010 listed above, I'm seriously not digging this wait for love. 2010 has definitely taught me that I can't rush or plagiarize this stuff, so...
2011 - I trust that you will help me to love better in all areas this year! Looking forward to it!
Sincerely,
Danielle
